Watch me Fall

2011-12-23T15:38:00.002+08:00

Hahaha..

False alarm for the previous post.

I was trying hard to get some time to update my blog for the missing parts..

I'm gonna look back this blog when I'm old thou..

I'm just done with my week 14 for this sem..

you know what??

I screwed up everything.

regret doesn't help..

but I would never let these happened in next sem anymore..

AHHhhhh!!!!!

i was letting it go

little by little..

and if this goes on..

I will have nothing left in the future.

I can't mess up my finals anymore.

pimples everywhere :(

2011-12-15T19:46:00.003+08:00

well..

I'm giving warning here...

Massive updates is coming this weekend!!!

Woah~~~!!!

^0^

2011-12-15T19:22:00.000+08:00

Now I know why people are saying that UPM is Universiti Peperiksaan Malaysia..

Test after test...

I had to have coffee almost every night to keep myself stay awake for the past few months..

to study..

to finish up my assignments..

as well as to to rush my home works.

and i think this has to continue until my finals is over.

*drowning*

this really makes me feel that the organs inside my body are all messing up

but i can't really open them to check if they are alright. Haha XD

tough moments.

when you have nobody to be told..

everyone has their own things to busy with..

and some people just don't understand..

I'm left standing here asking for why..

it's something needs to cope with..

especially when you're alone staying out of home..

I'm glad to have her!

at least when i don't know who to talk with..

or when I need someone to stay beside me, even she doesn't speak or respond to me..

but every time when i look at her, i feel warmth and she is with me. :)

Happy Birthday to Bibi!

hehehe..

2011-10-06T15:04:00.002+08:00

It is now the 4th week of this semester.

and I feel the changes in me.

I do my homework

I don't go home so regularly like how I did for the past semesters.

Home is still the best place no matter what! :)

I've became much more determined in doing something.

I.....blah blah blah.

Do you really know me?

I don't even know myself sometimes.

I can't get online in my hostel for about a week already

and for every break between classes

I make wise of them so hard to get online in the computer lab...

I'm soooo addicted to The Sims Social on Facebook recently!

Ahhhh!

Dahlah cannot online..

this morning when I want to brush my teeth..

tak ada water supply pulak.

when my phone battery ran low and I wanna charge it..

socket was malfunctioning..

and there was someone in the bus...

farted!
owh.... itu tempat sudah manyak sempit.. kenapa kentut lagi..?!

bad day bad day...

today is a bad bad day...

2011-09-29T15:38:00.002+08:00

2011-09-29T15:37:00.000+08:00

These days...

what I realized about FRIENDS was

when they get to know you more

they try to make fun of you.

.dull life.

Quote of the day

I love seeing old couples

because it makes me feel that there is actually someone in this world

that can love you forever..

2011-08-20T00:00:00.002+08:00

someone said this...

someone said that...

from every single little thing that you did

I'm no longer that someone in your life

Sigh.

there are people who can replace you anytime and anywhere

2011-08-16T00:08:00.002+08:00

When there is someone who makes you the center of his life

You feel that you own the world at the moment

it's not easy

in life we meet lots of people

there are people who want to take something from you

time, dream, or any other little things

there are also people who don't take a thing

but they don't leave a thing in return too

someone who doesn't take you for granted

he could have done a little but you can't deny the fact that

he has the strength to open your eyes to see more than you could

as well as discovering the true you.

I appreciate what others have done for me

even it is just a tiny little thing

because there is no one in this world has the responsibility over the others

I was just too into the emotion of relationships

( eh, eh, relationships mean the simple connections between humans here.. : )

the feelings I had for their changes

and the feelings I had when I don't feel like I belong to anyone, anywhere, and

in short, people just don't need me. Aren't you?

Sigh.

Stupid huh?

humans don't need another to live

but undeniably people around you make your life better

they paint your life with colors

.
.
.
hey

who said grey color is not a color?

Ha..

I'm gonna explore into the new world

and be someone more than I thought I could be.

I love sunflowers because they give me a feeling of warmth and hopes.

2011-08-08T01:24:00.002+08:00

The power of photoshop!

Hahahha!

Tell me where you guys wanna travel to

and I can make your dream come true... effortlessly.

even though there were times that I don't like working there...

but undeniably,

I do learn alot in this 3 months working period...

Haha :)

2011-08-01T21:46:00.002+08:00

Here comes another month..

the last month of my holidays..

I have lost all my patience and motivation working at there

it's all about people, people.... and still people~

I'm gonna settle off my things as soon as possible

and leave all these people here

continue backstabbing each other and living in their own world.

I'm flying without wings~~

Oops...

I think I have a little bit of...overloaded myself.

Sigh. :x

x x x

celebrated my grandma's birthday yesterday

and everything was still ok yesterday

but today my grandfather admitted to hospital

it's a serious case and

thats all i know

I never been close with my grandfather

but this really makes me feel...uncomfortable.

he is a tough guy, as always.

yea

Nobody knows what will happen next..

I'm praying hard...

hopefully everything will be alright.

2011-07-19T21:18:00.000+08:00

感觉有点委屈

可是我不可以哭

2011-07-17T12:06:00.000+08:00

I remembered there was someone who said my blog is so dull.
Haha!

I don't know what is the current trend
but when I see them changing their blog layouts to colorful one
I feel like changing too!
Hahaha..
what a follower~

Colorful things obviously can make someone feel happier
and I hope everyone who is reading this is happy too . :)

He has gotten what he dreamed for.
And I really feel proud of you
Gambateh!
The journey is about to begin

Love is strange.
Umm...

2011-07-17T11:56:00.000+08:00

I guess I'm having some sort of hormone imbalance
and my temper was turning up an down...just like that.

you might think this is a karma cycle perhaps?
or distance really drives us far?
I don't know how much I have left in your heart
and that seriously caught me into a deep sea of feeling insecure.

was so excited to tell you that I have dyed my hair to purplish red color
it's okay that you didn't pick up my call but
you didn't even reply my message...
what a big LOL from you..

it's not a big matter la..
I'm not keeping it in heart.

but sometimes tiny tiny little things like these really make me feel that
people around me are so busy
and why the hell I am so free??

Oops. :x

2011-06-29T21:57:00.001+08:00

Humans have unlimited wants

it's nothing wrong with the unlimited wants but

what you've done to get your wants.

x x x

Recently

I'm rushing for the product catalog

like how i rushed for my assignments in the past semesters

but what makes it different is i am paid for this one

Hahaha..

I am running out of ideas on how to design it

because people see things differently

and I am now still trying on / guessing on

what my boss likes

I guess that's what makes the making of catalog is hard

because his cup of tea is totally different with mine

x x x

I'm listening to the radio every morning when i go working

and the gotcha calls are one of the hot cakes selling

some were really funny that I laughed so crazily

even though when I was driving

but recently

I started to feel annoying on it because

gotcha calls aren't suppose to be like this

for example

there is a social group

and the boss of that group called and tricked his group members

the conversations went this way

" Do you actually know that XXX and I are enemy? I want you to get a picture of him so that we can do something with the picture.... bla bla bla" *you know how the story line lah~*

and those group members were agreed with him that some of them even agreed to do something beyond the morality.

are they crazy or brainless?

does him worth your scarification like that?

this kind of conversations somehow revealed

how the world has transformed into

truly, madly, deeply

people have lost their ability of thinking

and do not judge with their rationale

social group creates social identity to one

which they feels they belong to

and this is really influential

that a marketer uses it as a tool

fuhh..

Bye everyone and have a good day!

Think twice before you say/do something

whatever that you say/do reflects what kind of person you are

thats what I always keep in mind.

2011-06-10T08:06:00.001+08:00

The result is out already!

It turns out to be unexpectedly good and

I so feel like wanna shout

Hooray!

So playing during study week doesn't affect anyway..

keep it up then... :)

Note : The swimming course screws up my mark.... a little bit.

2011-06-09T21:45:00.003+08:00

it has been quite a while that I didn't update my blog and maybe myself too.

I'm so outdated already, obviously.

I'm not even working for 10 days but can I fast forward the time and anyone can tell me that it's July already?

Time is definitely better to go but my workload is somehow exhausting.

Those works that people never wanted to do are basically what I am doing right now.

filing all the documents... a work which will never be done, unless the company is shut down.

checking the inventories in the store like a big huge hot oven.

with all the sweats and sticky sticky skin... Ah! I don't want to be seen in that way. : c

Through things that happen around us...

we know how much people weigh us in their heart.

wasn't got enough attention i guess..

I was so into the sea of blue since after I came back from the island.

you should know how frustrating to be with people you don't like *this much* for *that long*.

not trying to be emo or what la..

i'm just telling my recent thoughts.

if not i'm going to burst soon...

I mean...real soon.

when the conversations or the place is obviously not for me..

I choose to be quiet or leave.

It turns out to be a better way i think because I used to be the one talking and people never listen to me

when it comes to me..

everyone thinks that I will surely tell if I have something worth to tell..

yes.. it's absolutely true that I always need an ear to listen to me and I will get the "ear" myself.

Big problems or small matters...

perhaps I should just filter them first because not everyone interested with my stories.

thats why people never thought of taking the initiative to call me and ask me "How's life?".

it must be heart-warming i guess.

I wonder why.

I just need some time to transform myself and moving on with the journey

because time doesn't stop for anyone.

thinking of going for a vacation alone right now. ummm...

having time with yourself alone makes you think more about you yourself and the others.

i don't know why I'm so struggling in my heart (for reasons that I also don't know?) and I think I will be mentally ill soon if this continues...

2011-05-10T14:36:00.001+08:00

Someone said that I didn't announce in blog that I am home already.

Okay, for your sake,

I am home already!!

Hahaha XD

I don't feel like working anymore when I stay at home for a long time.

People always have the tendency of not walking out from the comfort zones.

Hire me!!!

2011-05-06T00:09:00.000+08:00

Hello anyone?!

I am a little bit of excited here.

I am being called for annnnnn....... interview again!

hahha..

the job position i am applying this time is Accounts assistant.

This is something new to me

and the first time ever I am getting myself used to being an Accountant in the future.

A big smile to everyone.

2011-05-05T17:23:00.002+08:00

Shouldn't be here maybe.

Doing something that you have no interest on is somewhat quite difficult for life to go on...

Awww...

this final is driving me crazy...

I tried my very best to study..

but still.. i fall asleep every time i look at the notes and books.

this is surely not a good thing.

ah!

two more to go~~

fast fast make it over then I'll come alive again!

♥ ♥

I should be studying but...

I am cooking porridge for my friend.

after finishing the porridge...

We're now cooking red bean soup.

damn no mood to study.

slap me!

@o@

2011-04-27T18:10:00.001+08:00

I get to stay in the hostel next year after I went through all those frustrating procedures.

Yeah?!
In fact, everyone who did an appeal get to stay in the hostel..
and we are all now under a voluntary club where we will need to stay active in that stupid club so that we can get a place in the hostel for both semesters next year.

It's so unfair if everyone who appealed get it..
I had sacrificed so much time and efforts in joining the activities...
but some of them rarely attended the activities.
even worse, I have to compete with the 70 people who did an appeal next semester.

How tiring huh?

life like these can never be ended.

Damn.

*angry*

But if course, undeniable, it is a happy ending where everyone gets to stay in hostel next year.
Yeah............................

_UPDATED_

I take back the words stupid club as they say it is going to be a club supervised by the pengetua himself. So as long as we stay active in the club, we get to stay in the hostel regardless of what the block felo and KB will say... :)

2011-04-25T21:41:00.004+08:00

A summary on What I am Up to Recently. :)

Recently, just like the On the way, standard and normal, are all dangerous because everyone has different definition on the words.

1. I didn't get to stay in hostel next year.

Aww.. you know... :x
Too much of unexpected. I joined almost all the activities held in the hostel already but still...
when the list came out, people who hardly to be seen during activities got to stay in the hostel.
I am not blaming, but I somehow feel there is something unfair out there. if it was all based on the merit collected from joining the activities, I don't see why I can't get to stay in the hostel. If there is other criteria that you are looking on, please make sure all the applicants are well informed.

I did an appeal where the process required me to fill in a form, pass up my merit book, and.. write an appeal letter on the reasons that you want to stay in hostel and what contributions you had done and going to do for the hostelllllllllll..... Ummm.. I need quite a long time to figure out perhaps. I want to stay in hostel but I never really thought of the reasons; I am going for university, I am taking up Accountancy, I am going to get a job, I am going to marry a man who love me, I am going to have children... everything in my life is so.. standardize and I never thought of the reasons why I am doing all these. So aimless huh?

After struggling for few hours, I finally came out with my lovely one-paged appeal letter and passed up to the felo. My feeling was all like OH MY... are you guys sure this is a letter? The appeal letter prepared by the other people are all more to proposals than a letter. As a conclusion, the felo was kind enough and subtle enough to ask me redo that appeal LETTER. Finally, I came out with a something like proposal but in fact, appeal letter. All I can do now is WAIT.

little thought from this, can't get to stay in the hostel is not something big matter. What I meant was, it is not the end of the world. Just... need not to cry and save your energy on preparing the proposal-like appeal letter lohhh. =S AND people are all evil or perhaps more accurate one... objective-oriented. Hmmm....

2. My F.I.N.A.L E.X.A.M is here already!

I had my first paper this morning and it was quite easy.
Hopefully the papers coming up next will be like this also~~ Hahah XD

When final exam is here already,
It means semester break is coming up very soon too!!!
I can smell fun and joyness in my coming holidays!
I am gonna make it a different one this time :)

3. Saisaki Japanese Buffet@Wisma UOA II

Didn't know who actually came out with this idea and we walked for miles to find its location.
Pictures do the speaking now~~

4. Swimming Carnival

Swimming class finally came to an end.
This is the swimming carnival, which was also the last class we will be having and I feel so.. in a paradise!

The instructor that taught us swimming is really nice.

I do learned a lot from her and for every achievement I am having now and in the future, it is all because of you.. :)

I am already landed when everyone is still in the air~~~

5. Do you know that Pizza Hut has 50% discount on daily menu?

Half the price, same great quality!

Be Wowed! =D

very full =)

6. Something is wrong with her.

Umm.. I do not want comment much on this at here.
Too many stalkers out there. DANGEROUS!!!
Ask me personally if anyone wants to know =x

7. I have unwashed clothes left for two weeks already.

Nothing to be explained on.
As mentioned, I have unwashed clothes left for two weeks already.

8. My belated Birthday

Time Flies... I still remember the days I was a child and ehhh??

I'm officially 20 years old alrea...dy...

as told, I went to greenbox by myself and people were all looking at me with a weird eyesight.

But regardless of what people think of me,

I enjoy my day. =)

The very first time I can monopolize all the three mics!

Aim achieved!

Celebration with family.

I bought the cake myself and wrote the birthday wishes myself, how sad huh? XD

What a surprise they gave me~~

Thanks for the bra as gift and thanks for all that you all have done for me.

I am really touched and didn't expect you all to do so much for me =)

surprise over surprise...

It is now almost three weeks after my birthday already but they are still not tired of making SURPRISES~~

Hahaha...

Really thanks. =)

Of course, I would not forget those piggies in Klang that surprised me and Suet Ying at Jane's house that night.

Thanks for everything. =)

9. Weight

Weight gained again.

I am always in Weight-Losing Mode but as usual, everything happens according to moods and so 1uncontrollable. What makes thing worse is, the friends I have in university here are all BIG-EATERS!
We hunt for food and we enjoy eating. =)

Okay, can't help in falling in love with those food hunting events.
I have four months to keep myself away from them...and I'm gonna ~~stop eating~~ eat less.

10. Job Hunting

I wanna make this holiday a different one. But how different?
I am not sure. =x

I stepped into the world of jobstreet.com and tried to apply some jobs available there for my four months semester break. Done a resume through the website, and I sent the four applications altogether. The next day, one of the applications made some noise, finally? I received an email asking for the location I would to work and asked me to go over for an interview session. I have papers on the date they mentioned... and I asked if I could change it to other day... Deng Deng.. No response already. =(

Sincerely and Truthfully,

________________
( Yee Joe )
The lovely.

2011-04-07T23:41:00.000+08:00

People are working..

People are going school..

People...

I just don't want to be left alone at home like how I passed my Fridays in the past...

I am not being EMO...

But it was all well-planned, that I am going to celebrate myself...

and I am now...

will be left alone at home again. =(

You're so cruel to me.

Not to forget,

I would like to wish the girl who is always older than me for one day

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

When we are getting older,

keeping yourself simple and be satisfying is always the hardest thing to be done.

So, stay happy, friend :)

2011-04-04T23:26:00.001+08:00

Breakfast ♥ McD with sisters

I Never Told You Lyrics- Colbie Caillat

2011-04-04T22:41:00.001+08:00

All I ever wanted is to feel appreciated.

2011-03-27T11:55:00.000+08:00

You just can't deny that doing things alone is good,

especially when you don't have the right person to do the right thing with you.

pissed off... a little bit perhaps?

x x x

还不想把这个社会想得太差，

因为我相信还是有好人的存在。

或许大家都在提防，

那个一大群人中的一个坏人？

2011-03-26T10:42:00.003+08:00

Okay well,

I'm going home tonight

And coming back here tomorrow.

I know it's a bit of rushing..

But I am going back home for several reasons :

1. To celebrate my youngest sister's birthday CAKE CAKE~!

2. To get the certificates needed in applying the scholarships.

3. To get myself a new spectacles.

4. To hunt for a doctor perhaps?

: the medicine I got here doesn't help much >.< my eyes are still itchy as usual.

5. To cut my hair.

6. To bring back the clothes that my sister wants.

weee~

Here I have 6 reasons for me to go home tonight.

When people are trying to get something desired,

They try real hard to make that thing look sense and rational.

2011-03-22T22:47:00.001+08:00

Some short stories to share.

Too much of emo recently... >.<

Sometimes, please...

all I need is a hug

and tell me that everything will be okay.

她接到喜欢了七年的他的电话

他对她说：

“我们在一起吧?”

尽管听到电话那头别人的窃窃笑声

她还昰淡定地说：

“好啊……”

然后她问：

“大冒险又输了吧?”

他说：

“我选的是真心话”

他和她已经分手两年

两年来

他每天下班习惯性地打开她的博客

看看她一天的心情

她有时候高兴

有时候悲伤

有时候失落..

他只是静静地注视着

不做一点评论

甚至删掉了自己的浏览记录

直到有一天

她博客上挂满了她的婚纱照

下面有一行小字

“我嫁人了

不等你了

不更新了”

车到站了

广播响起

"请各位乘客带好你的贵重物品下车"

他对她说

“走吧…贵重物品”

地铁里

爸爸抱着一个大号的哆啦A梦玩偶

儿子手里抱着一个小号的

儿子眼馋的望着爸爸手里的

爸爸说

“乖、别吵

这昰给妈妈的”

雪夜

他单膝跪地

右手碰着她最爱的红玫瑰

左手拿着一个戒指盒

她一脸幸福说

“别閙了

这么多人”

他笑着说

“那你答应我不?”

她点点头

周围人雷动

回家路上

她看着她微驼的背影说

“求了十几年的婚了

下一年的结婚纪念日

换个方式吧！”

2011-03-22T19:48:00.000+08:00

People are all getting farer apart

things that we used to promise last time

are they still in your mind now?

argghh..

I hate it when I feel empty in my heart

I don't know where should I belong to

>.<

2011-03-20T23:02:00.000+08:00

Purposely went out to hunt for bah kut teh today.

I still prefer bah kut teh from Klang :)

Chon xin and I

note : she eats a lot! :x

I like this alot :))

Today is a happy day!

2011-03-19T23:32:00.000+08:00

Read it from the news that there will be "SUPERMOON" tonight

and as usual..

I can always see the moon right from my hostel.

看月亮，还真的会低头思故乡……

2011-03-19T13:01:00.001+08:00

the exams have really got me suffocated!!!

i did feel like cursing the coordinator for coming out with such questions...

how is it possible to finish them in 2 hours time?

people were crying n screaming...

and when I look at them..

I think of myself in the past.

tears of regret?

I used to be crying when i came out from the hall

mostly because of regret

that I know I can score better if I have studied on that earlier

I won't be crying over the paper yesterday

because i know i can actually do it better

if I am given more time.

no matter what

I feel great because it's over :)

2011-03-19T12:48:00.002+08:00

I think my eyes has got infected.

They have been so emotional since few months ago...

Sometimes very dry but sometimes very watery...

but all the times..

They are so itchy!!!

eye drops can certainly relieve my eyes irritation..

but impossible i have to use it for long term..

ermmm..

doctor?

I'm scared. :'( if the doctor tells me something bad.

How if I am going blind?

2011-03-19T00:40:00.000+08:00

First,

I have to declare that I'm not one of Namewee's fans

but somehow I do really admire his courages in voicing out his mind.

the lyric is meaningful,

good enough to reflect how the world is going on..

I am sure that we all know the earthquake happened in Japan last week..

there are so many people crowded in Facebook and start having events like "Pray for Japan" and etc.
Something that we should really think about is..
Why not we do something instead of praying?
of course I am not saying praying is not good...
but praying only after a disaster has happened is just like crying over split milk.
There are things that we could actually do.

we should pray before it happens,
as well as after because it's finally over.

Try looking at the trash can..
it is all full with the polystrene containers..
and it doesn't happen only for one day...
So think of how many rubbishes we have actually produce everyday...

Get yourself a tupperware container if you want to da bao food.
Refuse using plastic bags when you're shopping,
Bring your own bags instead.
note : I practice this in my daily life thou :)

Don't ever think that we, as an individual cannot do anything..
But everything starts from one.

For the sake of people out there...

They are not even given choices...

we are so into our so called development

but they are the one who have to bear with the consequences..

Don't you think it's unfair?

We are just lucky enough to born in Malaysia
without those natural disasters..
until so far I would say.

If we are still doing nothing and go on with a trashy life,
we are actually directing ourselves to the scenarios in
The days after tomorrow
and
2012.

Together, we can make a change :)

2011-03-17T16:53:00.007+08:00

I never been hating somebody so much like this since the day I was born.

Her face is just so annoying enough that make me wanna slap her...

as hardly as I could.

How on Earth there is people like her that always TRY SO HARD to gain attention from the others?

and please lahhh...

Please don't propose something that you are not even doing it.. at all.

Another way of getting attention?

Or for the sake of your brother?

Owh.. very sorry then.

I don't think I can make it.

You make me wanna say....

Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh...

OMG!

___________________________________

UPDATED

Guess she reads my blog too?

I saw her bringing her own bekas to da bao yesterday.

Hmm..
It's a great start afterall
and
honestly, i do really change my own perspective toward her....a little bit. :)

2011-03-16T20:28:00.001+08:00

I miss home beary much!

especially when a huge wave of tests and assignments are approaching...

i feel like escaping from here..

2 weeks I cannot go home because of tests.

I wonder why they love to make it on weekends?

eeeeee...

so many insects are crawling, here and everywhere in my room.

I'm gonna eat themmmmm alll!

Can we just fast forward to May already?

x x x

Blog is surely not the only way to keep in touch with friends

but when we are all physically separated

in different places,

It means something.

No calls or text messages doesn't mean I don't put you in my heart.

I just want to know what you're up to recently. :)

2011-03-10T01:07:00.002+08:00

We're so crazy recently,

Sendiri punya rumah tak mau balik~

but i enjoy going to their hostel so much these days.

Hahahhaa...

here comes the assignments and midterm...

fuhh...

hardly to breathe...
like i have just done my Test 1?!

- ignore that first-

Counting down the days left for sem break! =D
i'm gonna write myself a list-to-do and ENJOY MY HOLIDAYS!

2011-02-23T23:39:00.000+08:00

Too many things are still left undone..

and it's irresponsible to go home just like that...

I don't know if i am needed over there..

but at least i want to be there whenever i am needed.

Some more classes will be ended by 5pm tomorrow and

it will be late already when I reach Klang.

since I have to take KTM..

so tiring...

BUT...

I wanted to go home so badly!

Not really sure what's coming up in next week...

awww....

Should I go home tomorrow? >.<"

2011-02-17T11:37:00.001+08:00

Blog is somehow considered as an open-diary for me..

in which it records the path we've gone through altogether.

Try to read back and you'll feel the changes of yourself. :)

I still remember that you said,

blog is one of the ways that keeps us connected to each others.

that's what motivates me to blog

and make sure that my blog is not abandoned.

It was a misunderstanding since the beginning

so it shouldn't exist as a problem by now.

everyone is important in the group for me

so don't ever say that you're leaving.

Pictures taken that night :)

i wish i could have more time to be with you girls.

i dun think i can have friends like you all
no matter where i go in the future..

but what makes life sucks is..
I hate for staying in hostel that i hardly can join for any outings of you girls..
I miss the moment in secondary school
where we can meet everyday!

emo pulak now...

wth am I doing here?

a degree is that important?

don't feel like studying anymore........

I wanna go back! :"(

Laptop was spoiled since the last few months

and i could not really have my time on net properly

as it turns off by itself so often. :(

and till the last week...

i've got a new laptop!

thanks to dad.

*turning into 20 soon and I am still spending my dad's money? Haihz...

So, here am I to fill up the missing pieces of my blog...

2011-02-15T18:40:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps,

Happy Chinese New Year!

It's great to have all family members gathered

and start eating like nobody's business! =D

人家新年都美美的，我肥了就算了，还黑到像堆炭……

2011-01-29T17:52:00.001+08:00

I had my friends from UPM back to Klang with me during the last mid sem break

( or the CNY break? :/ )

Here are some pics updated for that so called One day trip in Klang :)

What else?

88 steamboat house lor~

and the next day...

Aeon Bukit Tinggi =D

we watched the Great Day.

you'll never truly know n understand someone until u've stayed for at least one night with him or her.

thats why the saying goes that

a couple go travelling will usually came back either quarrel or their relationship becomes even better than before.

of course this can be applied to friends too.

if it's not better, then it's the vice versa.

2011-01-27T18:15:00.000+08:00

like what i've posted in my Facebook before this,

Malam GongXi was an event for Chinese New Year's celebration organized by my college in UPM.

the stage which they had been spending quite a lot of time n effort in it.

I, again as the member of publicity unit had seriously got me so restless n stressful.

we're in charge of the ticket selling n promoting this event to people from other colleges.

It's still the same thing i would say that you'll never know until you've experienced it.

Counting the tickets n money every night..

and i felt so stressful whenever they called up the publicity to ask for the progress.

Trust me, my group members n I had really done our best and I seriously don't feel like going through all those things again.

it's somehow embarrassing to confront with somebody and trying to promote something in which people don't feel like responding to u at all.

So, as a conclusion, be nice to promoters next time, at least a smile will do :)

No matter how many effort n time you've invested in,

it's all worth when you see it successfully done. :)

and obviously this event has bond us all together and I don't think it will be the same anymore

for the next year as many of them are moving out already.

/(~.~)\

the end of Malam GongXi means CNY break is coming!

2010-12-24T12:21:00.004+08:00

I do really enjoy the moments with my siblings.

We are so used to be like children abandoned by parents at home,

and thats why we started playing all those silly games.

"Come, i hide all the teddies then u all go find ar..."

"Would u scare of me if I am a ghost?"

then we started chasing each other just to make sure I have chin..

Hahaha XD

Mom is in a vacation and the car.... =DDD

Bringing them here n there was fun thou.

But, Sometimes we quarrel too.

even when we were in shopping malls.

the workers there got scared and one of them, ran away! hahaha XD

Lastly, the main thing about this post is to say ::

Ho Ho Ho! Merry X'mas everyone!

2010-12-21T14:06:00.000+08:00

told that I won't be getting a 4 this time...

Tips are all given by lecturers...
We even knew what questions were coming out in exam but still...
I did it so bad.

Over-excited to see those questions were just like what lecturers said?

Haihz.............
even though sighing doesn't help at all. :"(

All work n no play gonna be my aim next semester...
....................at least during the exam season.
Ahhhhhh!! Slap me!

I knew how my result would possibly be,
but I was actually hoping for MIRACLE to happen,
any kind of miracles.

2010-12-01T20:20:00.004+08:00

I know i have been saying this all the while...

but still... I want to lose weight!!!

Being BIG is not something that really worth to be proud of actually...

Oh please, please make it real this time. :x

2010-11-28T11:56:00.000+08:00

Remembering those footprints of mine in the past...

They look so small, immature n sometimes stupid...

But at least they are happier... :'(

When I say I'm okay,

I'm actually not...

When I try to hide myself in a corner,

I hope there will be somebody to get me out from there...

Can I just let everything goes..?

Of course I can

2010-11-25T19:37:00.000+08:00

....And I wonder if I ever crossed your mind...

For me it happens all the time....

Life has been so...meaningless at home.

I know there are plenty of MEANINGFUL things that I can actually do...

*you gonna say this, i know*

But...

I just........................

Fuhh...

_The End_

2010-11-16T23:55:00.001+08:00

Story begins in the mid of June this year where i got my salary n spent all on buying SE C905...

it was good overall..

i like the feel when it laid on my palm...

(I still love it until now XD)

but happy moments didn't go long as it started to hang, malfunction of de speaker and the craziest part was...the SONY ERICSSON started to fade off!!!

went to the retailer n changed for a new one for four times and problems never solved.

So, for the last time.. we requested for refund.

scenarios like "you ask, they give" of course would not be happening..

The asking-for-refund process was so adventurous I would say?

it didn't seem like what a person with this age could done but in fact we did (actually is you did it :P)...

Got back the money then ma buy a new one lo...

I was first aimed at SE w995.. mainly because of its 8.1 MP camera...

But obviously, I'm just not fortunate enough.

Bo stock wor~~~ How sad :(

Then, I was thinking of getting Nokia X6 (it's just yesterdayyyyy...!!)...

and today, I brought Nokia C6-01 home.
* that shows how unique women are.. they change really fast XD

Awwwhhh... Thats really got my savings drained out.

From c905 to w995...

then x6 to c6-01...

these phones were seriously drove me crazy...

but i hope not the last one... :P

谢谢你为我付出的，真的……谢谢。

不懂要怎么报答你了，

呃………

我请你吃好吃的！

哈哈哈！

2010-10-30T16:29:00.005+08:00

This is a lonely weekend in which my roommate has gone to Malacca with her friends.

One week before the finals...

but i ain't in the mood of studying...

Hardly to get a chance to be alone in room...

so... LET'S PARTY!!!

Hahahah!!!

*crazy

when i first came in my hostel room...

the first thought that came across my mind was "How am I going to live here for years?"

But when time goes on...

I started to get used to this place...

and my sweetie roommate can't stop saying this is our HOME...

Aww... She is so sweet... :)

_Zoom In_

when i opened my windows every morning...

this is what can I see from my windows...

and undeniably, it makes me feel so relaxed~

C-O-C-O-N-U-T..

COCONUT! KELAPA!

Happy Study Week everyone! :)

2010-10-28T18:18:00.000+08:00

i don't know what makes us attended ourselves to the annual general meeting (AGM) of our accounting club as well as our faculty...
and should I say that was just another politics scenario like we used to see in our country?

frankly speaking, i don't know where are all those candidates came from...
and don't we all have the rights to vote to whoever that we think is suitable for de post?
for de president post.. it's just so obvious that the malay guy is more to a leader look compared to another chinese girl who talked so much on the stage but we didn't even understand what was she talking about...
so when the voting session came, we voted for de malay guy and all the chinese students in that hall looked at us... four of us...

"ooi...!! put down ur hands la..."
"why u all vote for malay?!!"
they said.

Here comes again I duno what makes me feel so fucked up that time and I took my bag... I left the hall.

even the seniors in our hostel told us (or reminded us?)...
"U don't need to know who are they la... Vote chinese vote chinese!!"

I am so not going to put myself into this kind of cycle...

Please be reminded that if you don't want to be discriminated, then you, yourself shouldn't be discriminative.

2010-10-06T14:43:00.002+08:00

求求你，不要把书包放在我床上……

2010-10-05T16:38:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah!

First time ever i volunteered myself to take part in an event.

I wanted to do this for so long d..

Haha...

3/10

Banner day!

everything went smoothly n i hope the nexties will be the same too! :)

These are what i've done.

P/S :: I can't wait for de steamboat tonite! :D

2010-10-05T16:20:00.000+08:00

I wish I have more time... please?

Life has been so hectic these days...

and I wasn't able to go back to Klang for 2weeks d...

aiks...

I miss everyone n everything in Klang!

even the air there too....

coughing for almost a month d...

de cough syrup doesn't help at all...

ignore all those annoying stories n faces...

what really makes me feel better n relieved now is all my tests are over...

....at least for now, one month before my finals.

here are some picture updates for the events lately...

MASIBU

Malam Silang Budaya which was held last week in my college...

I was one of the AJKs but seriously...

I didn't really contribute much here...

the days were enjoyable when u have de chance to meet more new ppl...

the stage

and the peoples... :D

Next, estate visiting.

It's really nice to pay a visit to there...

better than sitting in the lecture hall and listening to the lecturer on how the trees look like...

Ha ha!

but surely not at 2pm!

and with a management test which i had not revised a single thing on it yet after that...

fuhh.........

Starfruit!! =)

Corn~~

Fish rearing pond

Take 1

Take 2

and finally... Take 3!

Is it that hard to take a picture of me?

Outings... =P

Haha...

This is another thing which made us gone crazy over it...

5girls who don't really know how to cook...

went to the market n bought de ingredients...

n dis is the outcome!

Tang Yuan dipped in Chinese Herbal Tea.

Hoho...

last but not least...

I miss Bunny!

2010-09-19T22:29:00.001+08:00

It's surely not a good news when u planned for that long and after all it ended up to be this long!
oh,yea. it's so stupid.
p/s :: umm... obviously, u don't know how stupid i feel right now... more than u expect! =0

I was rushing all de while...
bringing more than 5 bags...
and it was so hard for me to move my ass from my house...

and when i arrived here...
"the proposal haven't done yet..."
~~wtf...!!!~~

I am already here, in UPM!
I am already here, in UPM!
I am already here, in UPM...

2010-09-17T01:33:00.000+08:00

醋意浓浓。

唉，真的要做到不去比较真的好难。

我是个爱幻想喜欢惊喜的人，

很难静下来，所以我身边的人都需要很多的energy来应酬我。

而他，却是个脚踏实地，时时刻刻会想要保护你，

很好，一切都很好，

只是，这会是我想要的吗？

怕的是，十年以后的我，

后悔当年的自己不够勇敢，

一点也不潇洒。

或许，就单纯的不安于平凡。

You want to be a leader, and when you see something you want, you keep striving until you achieve your goal. You are a trend-setter, loyal, passionate, and self-confident. Your weaknesses include vanity and jealously and a tendency to be too competitive.

2010-09-16T22:34:00.002+08:00

Hooray!
It's Malaysia day...
*We all love holidays, don't we? Hehe...

For me, 1 Malaysia is actually a good concept...
yet, it's simple too.
but what makes it hard to be achieved is de people...

"We're all different, but thats what makes us unique."
i like this statement n it can really be used to describe our country.

If people are racists... How can dis be done?
even a 3yrs old child also understand whats that mean...
but it's not easy..
because humans make dis world so complicated to live in...
it's humans' nature anyway...
we're all tend to be etnocentric...
we think ours are always better den de others..
n we fight till de end with de perception of fight for ur own race?
in fact, who cares?

Sometimes..
I do really miss de life in KMK...
where students from all races mix around n at least we know each other...
we greet when we meet...

Much more better than now...
where u will have a roommate from de same race...
u don't even know who's staying next door to u...
people don't smile when they meet...
eventho u take de initiative to smile at dem...
some will still ignore u...
u know how sad it is...

Life is so occupied n u won't bother to know what's happening around u.
Sigh~

Happy Malaysia Day everyone. ;)
I love my country because i was taught to love it.

p/s :: it's important to be neutral minded.

2010-09-16T21:56:00.000+08:00

umm...

I wish i can back to few days ago.

then i wouldn't cut my hair. ;(

2010-09-14T22:39:00.004+08:00

It has been such a long time since i last updated my blog...
But life still going on even though blog is not updated... ;)

What happened recently was...my hair!!
this is my fault... i know i know...
I shouldn't even get to know de existence of scissors in my room...!!!
obviously, this is not de 1st time I took a pair of scissors n....do an experiment on my hair!
Hmm...

Roughly see how bad my hair was can alry...
P/s :: believe me, it was really...BAD.
better not to know so much in some cases... :"(

I should be grateful because my cousin brought me to a saloon n where all those expected conversations happened AGAIN.

"This... u cut urself?" with an unbelievable eyesight.
"Umm... yaya......." aiks!

Owh... much more better i would say.
Seriously.. No next time!
P/s :: But who knows wat will happen 2mr? *evil* hehehe...

last but not least...
here are some photos update for recent life :)

Went for a 3D movie the Resident Evil with her...

Umm... jacket got rampas. :( How sad.

With love,

2010-08-27T17:59:00.001+08:00

有没有人可以告诉我，
我到底属于哪里？

徘徊于人与人之间，
到处游荡，却没有那熟悉的归属感。

我累了，我真的累了。

大学，我只是路过罢了。

x x x

总觉得自己是独行侠，独来独往，注定一辈子都是一个人。
从小学，中学……到现在。

或许看开点，就不会觉得委屈，
也不会因为这些事情不开心。

独来独往，省下很多时间，
不用等这个等那个的，
也不必浪费时间讲废话，
不需要讲每句话都需要想很久，
因为你根本都不会需要说话。

x x x

强颜欢笑，果然是很辛苦的，
可是这些更是让我的眼泪变坚强了，
因为我知道，我只能靠自己。

2010-08-22T21:09:00.000+08:00

我真的觉得自己很失败。

都上大学了，明年就二十岁了，

还不能让身边的人对我有信心。

我很努力了，可是还是摆脱不了大家对我懦弱的印象。

可以给我一个机会吗？

2010-08-21T22:40:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i do really wonder wat de hell m i doing in a university?
this is so not a place for me...

I don't like to study for academic purpose seriously...
fuhh...
a degree doesn't mean much for me..
in fact...
just to fulfill de market's needs...

n now...
she has successfully caught me into the mess of hers...!!

I found her competing with me in every subjects...
every tests...
almost everything...
and thats really annoying...

I don't like the way she acts...
the ways she talks...
and the ways i feel she spies on me!

You! Target! Boom!

Hey... No prejudice pls! :)

2010-08-12T20:47:00.000+08:00

Just to share some pictures taken on de 1st day of registration at UPM...

This picture looks so lovely with Bibi in it... :)

Owhh...

It seems like we all had a great time over there! XD

Oh?

Is that a camera?

Hahaha...

My roommate in UPM... :)

2010-08-12T20:09:00.000+08:00

Perhaps i just need a little bit of attention here.

Happy fasting for everyone! :)

2010-08-05T15:27:00.008+08:00

无聊无聊~

更新下~

在大学生活了一个月，

谈不上什么习惯不习惯，

只是这里的诱惑很多，

很多东西可以给我玩……

\(^.^)/

加上很靠近家里，

所以常常回去，

很少会有机会留在宿舍。

才没多久，

下个星期就要考试了！！！

啊！！！

……晕了。

2010-07-23T20:08:00.000+08:00

it's hard for me to get everyone satisfied...
i'm both physically n mentally worn out..

when are those activities will go to an end?
tests n assignments are coming up like hell...
but i fall asleep in almost every lecture i attended...

emo season is here again...
i do really hunger for an outing...
which will be carried out alone...
where i'll be in my little own world again...

if u really understand n care about me...
u know what i really need from u now...

2010-07-14T23:01:00.002+08:00

Life in matriculation for a year has really helped me alot in adapting myself to a new environment in UPM...
it's funny to look at those people who just can't stop complaining about the life in campus...
Most of them have problems with the toilets...
which i think it's not a problem at all...
(because i used to it already mah... hehehe... >.< )
umm...
some of them even confused about WHEN n WHERE to go for the classes...
they did really reflect me when I first entered matriculation...

I thought semester one would be relex-relex one...
but it doesn't happen like what i thought...

The gap between the classes is about 5hrs everyday...
n i'll have to lepak around de faculty for 5hrs!
since we use public transportations in the campus area...
which means that we'll have to wait, wait n wait...
or else then u can walk, walk n walk...

however...
it's great to wander around n discover new thing!
( but not for de whole sem lar...)
there's lots of weird things happening around n
we learn from everything we experienced... :)

Oh ya...
there is another thing which makes my world falls on a muddy swamp...
as known...
free wi-fi services are available in almost everywhere in this campus...
but unfortunately...
they blocked all the facebook games n
time for online is limited...
how on earth they can be so cruel to me wehh?
aiks...

UPM is much more better than what i expected...

which implies de saying of "Don't judge a book by its cover"...

orientation week was really torturing...

U can see how tired n exhausted I was in the picture...

When u finally felt relieved after the killing week...

here comes pulak another orientation week for KOLEJ!

p/s :: kolej means hostel blocks.

Ahh...

Wish me Luck...

I'm doing this for myself...

Yes...

I am...

My lovely roommate has just went back to Penang...

n i'm gonna be alone for 4days...

Owh...

2010-07-12T14:37:00.000+08:00

what will u guys think when a foreigner told you that,
"I love Japan! I hate here! This is a terrible country!"?

It is our first day going for classes today...
and we met this guy asking for direction when we were walking along de sideways in university...

Friends were all laughing when he said that...
but honestly...
I dun feel comfortable to hear that from a foreigner...
it wasn't funny at all...

Malaysians do not have de confidence toward themselves...
even toward their country...
they dun response to protect their own country but they laughed n praised de guy for his honesty....

Undeniably high crime rate...

corruptions...

low efficiency in completing tasks...

but i do love Malaysia...

n I am proud to be Malaysian...

Come on lah...

Prove them that Malaysia is not that terrible!

aiks...

but i can take control of nothing in this...

I will play my own role n at least there will be me...to support Malaysia!

same thing goes to saving our earth...

Recyle, reuse n reduce! :)

2010-07-01T23:06:00.001+08:00

Fuhh...

what a relief...!!

finally got to settle down de application for PTPTN loan after few days stuck-ing on de website...

u're my only one financial hope for now...

pls...

i need ur companionship for de next 4yrs...

aiks...
it's time to leave my home again this weekend...
feel like i've just unpack my luggages few days ago n now i'll have to pack dem all again...
damn lazy wehhh...

too many to bring...
too many that will be forgotten ( i know i'll surely forget something )...
too many will need to be left....

how good if i can just shift everything over there?

2010-06-30T21:48:00.000+08:00

Watched FROZEN today and it really makes me FROZE...

dun ever let me be in that kind of situation...

where nobody knows u're up there...

i wouldn't be daring enough to jump from there...

or climb through de cable...

if I was there...

i will be found dead sitting on de lift chair...

fuhh...

it must be very pain to be eaten alive by wolves...

de pain that u'll feel when ur hands are being tear apart...

n de pain when ur bones are out of ur skin...!

Ahh... we should just watch TOY STORY 3 ~~

umm...

this movie simply reminds me of how a terrifying world we're living in...

where exposing in any elements for too long...

can result in painful n inglorious death...

btw...

when one's hoping for the characters in the movie can make it out alright in the end...

they are actually hoping that it will never happen to them...

Don't you?

Hahaha...

Yes, I did...

2010-06-30T10:11:00.004+08:00

Things didn't go like what we had planned earlier...

PD trip got cancelled n we went GENTING...!!

It should be a gathering plan with them but at last we all got separated and turned up to be an outing for three of us... muahahaha... XP

I don't really know what they'll be thinking of us but I did enjoy alot laa... :)

~~so, why bothers ?~~

But i'll never go there during weekends or holidays again...

it's not worthy to wait for 45min just for a 1 minute n 30 seconds ride...

umm...

Here are some random pictures taken at there...

p/s :: my heart is always too weak for everything. Ahh.. you know... :P

2010-06-29T22:20:00.000+08:00

太多想要完成却因为怠慢而不了了之的事了。

说要减肥，但体重只有往上升的迹象。
如果有恒心毅力的话，现在的我……
哎~说点别的吧！:P

还有几天就要上大学了，
但该准备的事儿，总是一而再，再而三的拖拖拖……
是的，我也讨厌最后一分钟才来赶。
人生大事应该看紧一点的。

几个月前下定决心要把我的房间收拾好，
可怎么……怎么收了还是很乱？

除此之外，我还懂得用灰尘包书。
那些书本杂志报纸……
我还抱着哪天会突然心血来潮，
让它们重见光明的希望。

算了算了，
让我自甘堕落吧！

2010-06-17T22:02:00.002+08:00

Someone has just got her upu result n i want mine too!

de website is just FLOODED like no other time...

Where am I heading to for de next 4years?

I don't really want to spend another 4 years in a place far away from my house...

It's really tough...

especially when u need someone to be by ur side... :(

btw...
Oh yea!
i can see freedom is waving his hands to me! :P

Owh...

Im getting nervous wehh...

Can anyone just make me calm?

updated

jior...
I really need a place for me to cry right now...

I never thought that i would be offered for a place in UPM...
I was mentally be prepared for UM or UUM...
but whats happening now is...
I've got neither both but my second choice, UPM...

wth is going wrong with my world now......
evrything is turning upside down...
damn!
:"(

posted by a heart broken girl who has just lost her chance to get into UM...

2010-06-14T01:01:00.000+08:00

Whoaakay...

Officially stop working at pappa kopitiam 2day.

I never thought that it would be something hard for me...
Waitress?
Nothing more den serving food n drinks n taking orders rite?...
"ah moi,, senyumlah sikit..."
(aiyo... tak suci betul... :x)
But for de days I was working thr...

I was really exhausted... :o

eventho I did complain a lot...

But I’ve learned alot at de same time too...

A single smile from u can make her day! :P

besides...

de foreign workers there are seriously exploited...

regardless of race, citizenship n religion...

we're all humans rite?

How on earth they can be so cruel?

:(
this is surely not a prey-predator cycle...

thats something that i hope i can make some changes in de future...

I never wanted to be just like dem...

de complications that i was facing...

please tell me if u understand me...

aiks...

Owh...
there's something that i still dun get it until now...
why are people hunting so badly for DRUMSTICKS?
dun u know that a chicken only supply 2 drumsticks?
be considerate n bersyukur laa...
n pls dun shout at de waiter/waitress when he/she tells u that
"...drumsticks finished already... umm..."

aiks...

dots dots dots...

it's too much to be written here...

in short...
I enjoyed working there when de UNCLE wasn't around...
world is surely better when it's in peace... :D

p/s:: it's time to get myself another part time job. :)

2010-06-08T22:37:00.001+08:00

很多时候会觉得，

都是同年龄的女孩，

我们……怎么才差那么远？

或许每个人都这不一样的人生目标，

想当的都是不一样的人，

当然，只要不犯法，

想当怎么样的人，

都是自个儿的选择，别人管不着。

只是……

有时候真的很想多管闲事一下……

女孩们，

请你们自爱点好吗？

有点自己的想法是好的。

2010-06-03T21:55:00.000+08:00

Yay!

ejoe's homemade dessert!

don't u think it's delicious?

Hahahaha! :D

*evil*

2010-06-03T12:43:00.003+08:00

我其实很小气

2010-05-31T22:11:00.000+08:00

Can anyone please tell me what is happening to my feet?

de aches that i'm suffering since last wednesday...

I'm feeling so sick right now...

2010-05-30T22:35:00.001+08:00

Will be getting my salary 2mr...

After all de hard works for one month...

there are lots of things in my shopping list...

thats de main reason i went to work...

aiks...

but money is never enuf yet de things that i want to buy will never come to an end...

really hav to plan before i spend for anything...

x x x

to be honest...
i hav no confidence that this relationship will go in long term like how i used to...

something is just not right between us...

but i hav to say that...
u're still de supportive n protective one for me...
n i'm trying my best to get u de same too... :)

I used to think alot about our future but i will no longer do that...
appreciating what we're having now seems to be more important than de others do...

thanks for everything u've done for me...

p/s:: I will never reject food if anyone offered me!

2010-05-23T22:28:00.003+08:00

Life can be so much better if we dun make things complicated...

I didn't think much as what u did...

I know my so called "dont-care attitude" is irritating...

but thinking too much makes my head feel like cracking...

I need somebody to share my life...

but not limiting or addressing me what to do...

Please...

Trust me that i can manage myself well...
it is just not your way of self-management...

Can we just go on with de simplicity we're having now?

2010-05-22T21:07:00.000+08:00

Physically exhausted.

I hope I can really lose some weights in de end of June. :S

2010-05-18T21:44:00.002+08:00

It's almost 3 weeks working there...

n i've been trying my best 2 get used to it...

time passes faster when u stop counting it... : P

He's just a foreign worker like others do...

I felt touched when he told me about de
weather in his hometown, Bangladesh ( same hometown..? >.<" )
n how he likes vegetables...

he plants alot of vegetables in their hostel
n he looks really happy talking about vegetables...

That really makes me think about de living cultures of Malaysian....

or in an another way...
WHO NEEDS VEGETABLES?

since we have too much to eat...

We have TOO MUCH...

N those bursting wardrobes...

thats y we never thought of de life without all these.........

People tend to regret only when they're about to lose it...

umm..
appreciation makes life better.... :)

2010-05-05T22:31:00.002+08:00

相爱没有那麼容易每个人有他的脾气

过了爱作梦的年纪轰轰烈烈不如平静

幸福没有那麼容易才会特别让人著迷

没那么简单-黄小虎

总觉得日子还长，

不想那么快就安定下来

i'm not sticking to the same daily routines...

I don't like that.

Therefore, something needs to be done. >.<"

Being outstanding is what i need to do.

caught myself seriously in de sea of LOA la recently...

getting desperater pulak...

_____________ +*****+*****+*****+*****+ ____________

No more kidnaping during work hours!

I got myself in a real guilty trauma....

I was so irresponsible, immature, selfish....................

p/s:: not blaming de kidnappers of course... :)

2010-05-03T21:47:00.002+08:00

If there's any word to describe me now...

it would be nothing...

2010-04-30T21:46:00.001+08:00

This is a 4-in-1 plan i should say...

Money..

Fall myself into some kind of busy days...

Get some new fren maybe?

n a way to force myself to exercise...

I have just ended up working as waitress again...:(

de process of getting an office job tells me how useless im without all those papers...

So... please get all the instruments prepared before u reach for de job...!

Thats what im gonna do den...

Im always de overvalued-myself person...

i should really think about it n start doing some changes...

I will never let myself to do what I'm doing now in de future...

fuhh...

last time working as a waitress...

this is what i promise to myself...

p/s::

standing for 10hrs everyday for de 40 bucks...

you know I can do something better...

sigh...

2010-04-26T00:22:00.002+08:00

Sometimes when I say "I'm okay",

I wish that there is someone to look into my eyes...

hug me tight n tell me,

"I know YOU'RE NOT..."

Single life begins.

2010-04-23T13:56:00.001+08:00

Accounting like kacang putih la....
no basic also can learn..
very easy only!!!!!!!

stupid xk...!

:'(

2010-04-22T21:26:00.003+08:00

Damn...!

I missed those scholarships again...!

I really need one wehhh... :'(

x x x

Are we getting older?

Or thats the trend of our secondary students nowadays?

2010-04-21T11:39:00.003+08:00

Girls are all going crazy for this drama recently..!

even during study week...

we were supposed 2 do revision...

( kalo x mau revise den tdor ma...! recharge urself! :P )

but I can hear de songs everywhr in Block B n Block C as well...

and when I paid a visit to their rooms...

lotsa of people watching this wehh...

I wonder if this coming out for de finals...?...

umm...

Girls like romance...

every girl does...

( accuracy up to 99.9% )

but when romance doesn't happen in reality...

they fall themselves into the dramas...

how on earth thr is someone so sweet like him?!

Gu Jun Pyo!

eh, i thought i like Yoon Ji Hoo more?

2010-04-20T21:59:00.005+08:00

They have all got themselves a job

n i'm still being unemployed

since we fired our boss a decade ago.

2010-04-19T22:54:00.007+08:00

假如你没有对我那么好，

那么我也不会内疚。

所以，不要再怀疑自己是不是对我不够好……

我们之间的差别太多了，

我不想要改变，

而你也不需要改变。

今天对了你说那些话后，

你的眼神，真的让我觉得好心疼。

真的要谢谢你，一个愿意对我那么好的人。

x x x

What's Your Mental Disorder? - Bipolar

Result: Bipolar

Not only can you be majorly depressed at times,

you also tend to be quite moody maybe even irritable.

You can switch back in forth without giving any one any notice.

Way to go you crazy person.

You are too much for any one person to handle, including yourself.

Why don’t you just pick a mood and go with it.

2010-04-18T21:47:00.005+08:00

U all have really underestimated me...

I dun like to be prejudged or to be set how should i response over a stimulus...

I do what I want.

I'm not going to change myself.

Don't ever try to rule me.

thanks for de cooperation.

2010-04-17T14:15:00.008+08:00

I should really start unpacking my luggage.

"Yeay! We're no longer have to live in that hell place finally!"

But my feeling is a bit complicated here.

Left the place which i wanted to leave for so long n back to the place where i used to belong...

I miss them.

I miss the days we sampat-ing around...

I miss the time i used to loiter around in our hostels.

Got scolded for wearing short pants...

with my "heater" stayed for a year in felo's office...

and my always-kena-blocked matric card...

(even when i was leaving, my card is still blocked.. ;P)

No more sleeping-over in others' rooms...

No more watching their funny acts when they wash clothes...

(This is one of my hobbies.. :D)

No more chit-chating for de whole nite...

n going classes with panda eyes...

Ahh..!

How I wish i will be having another Semester to spend with them?!

But for sure i won't think like that if i still have another one sem to go on thr... :)

Humans are weird rite?

Umm...

Life goes on..

I hope I can see those familiar faces in the university.

2010-04-16T11:39:00.010+08:00

Woohoo..!

I'm finally done with my matriculation life...!

i've really learned alot throughout this yrs...

n life is for sure better wit frens... :D

Some pic updates here...

I left de place like how it was...

i'm gonna miss dis place sooo much...!

de toilet... :)

Staircase 2 de heaven...

muahaha...! :D

Block B forever!

.....more picture uploaded on Facebook. :)

People tends 2 regret for not appreciating when they're losing it.

umm...

I'm back!

2months time...

n i will be achieving what i had planned earlier...

2010-03-19T11:07:00.011+08:00

I know it sounds so unbelievable...

but thats the truth..!

I just cant get rid of those crazy evil bad ideas from my mind...

WE JOINED AEROBIC COMPETITION!

n we won de 3rd place...

out of de 5 groups participated...

hehe...

the end of de sampat day...

Final is almost thr...!:S

p/s :: supposed 2 be published one month ago. :D

2010-03-15T13:30:00.005+08:00

I wanna shout out to those people if possible...

If only i dare to do so...

I don't like the wasting cultures in KMK...

Thats a typical Malaysian's attitude...

When you don't need to pay for it...

You waste it...

You're letting the water to flow even though u're not using it...

Think of the people that hardly survived out there...

You're wasting their LIFE...

Same thing goes to food too...

Earthquakes...

Tsunamis...

The Earth is showing you his anger....

as well as his limitations too...

Think about it n start doing what you can now...

Don't be trashy...

Recycle...

it's not about who influences who...

It can be a sharing of thoughts...

if u think mine are ridiculous n unacceptable...

Ignore dem n go on v ur life...

People who are not being concern or doing anything for this Earth...

Never say that you're afraid of de end of de world...

your time of decay may be distant...

but it surely will come...

2010-03-03T13:14:00.001+08:00

By bus or by flight?

I'm going back soon!

2010-03-01T14:39:00.007+08:00

I don't know what really bothers me these days...

For no reasons,

i'm being impatient to de others...

acting like somebody else....

fuhh...

my fault my fault....

40++ days left...

I should enjoy my matriculation lfe before it ends...

Fill my life with passion!

Arghh...!

Wth with de hw...........

Can't u just stop growing?

I never met such a racist person like him....

u're annoying.....................!

How would ur life be different if you only had a year to live?

that will be my speech title for de coming class...

I want to get married...

I want to have my own children....

I want to spend all my money off......

I want to go places that i have not stepped my foot on...

I want to eat, eat, eat n eat!

I want to....

I wlll make sure that I stay awake for every night.

2010-02-20T15:30:00.004+08:00

It's time to get myself to the airport...

Bye everyone!

I will be back in April...!

Cant wait for it... :D

Happy Chinese New Year n Happy Belated Valentine too!

Without a trace...

It's good to spend my time at home...

Hmm... :P

Blog will not be updated until i come back to home again.

*i guess so...*

2010-01-21T23:15:00.006+08:00

Whoa~!

Yay!

I wanna to scream out loudly if possible...

Holding back my breathe...

I'm trying to stay calm...

Hehe... :D

Never felt so relax for this two weeks...

My report has finally been done!

Can I have ~~yoyo ice~~ anything-lahh as reward?

Please~ :P

Although there are still tonnes of homeworks left in KMK...

but at least this is the first time i done what i brought back here...

Good time flies right?

Um...

It's time to get back to there again this Saturday...

I will be back! Hohoho...